No Post For Tuesday
I didn't get around to making a journal entry yesterday. Between face book catch up and posting of my daily verse on there and checking my email, I run out of time to make journal entries. I need to spend less time catching up on face book. One big item about yesterday, I was kicked off the Lakemont Defenders page. At first I was only band for another 7 day period. He said he was tried to be nice and patient with me. That is lies. Just because I asked to many questions trying to understand what is going on and who to believe is telling the truth, I have been band about 4 times from being able to comment on the page. I messaged the Admin of the page and he deleted me because he said I was blaming him for my problems on there. Which that statement is very untrue. I was told right after I joined the page that the people on there are very biased and if you don't agree what is being said on there, you are usually kicked off. They do not want questions or your opinions about the situation. It is a page for the property owners that have lawsuits against the POA and the POA board and what problems they are having. They do not want to hear about others problems. Jerry Swanson the Admin goes back on his word and cannot be trusted. At first I was only band for 7 days. Then because I answered back he said I was trying to blame him for my problems. So he then chose to delete me. That is fine. I will ask others that attend the court hearings to let me know what is going on. The present board and the POA organization is in deep trouble for not paying taxes to the IRS and Delaware County for three years, not having the books audited for the past 3 years, selling lots below price or giving them away. The IRS has put liens on the un-sold properties of Lakemont Shores, POA. The court has let a receivership take over for now to clear up all of the mess. A receiver is to be appointed at the next court date, November 14. The receiver was suppose to have been appointed at the last court hearing on October 24, but the POA lawyer couldn't make the court date. She has been postponing things for months. Most believe it is cover up things that she doesn't want to come to light.
Now on to Wednesday. I have been getting better rest the last few nights and feeling better the next day. Using my CPAP machine most nights for my sleep apnea. Still having the problem with being on face book to much as usual. I have down time from my chores and jump on here and get distracted for way to long. I used to jump on right after I get up. If I do that, I usually don't get much done around the house. Retirement, if you can't keep yourself busy and like doing house work, dishes and laundry it is very easy to get distracted and not want to do anything that needs to be done. My husband has became upset at me a few times, for wasting my day away. A few weeks back I thought I might should go back to work. I am sorry to say that scares me having to go out and look for a job at age 65. I know many have had to and can only find menial jobs that are only 3 and four hours shifts two or three days a week. Because that doesn't bring in that much, they have to get a second and third job to pay the bills. I do believe God worked things out the way he did for me because my mom needed help and I was still working and couldn't spend that much time to help her. I had planned to retire at 62 draw my SSA and work part time. I was only working part time anymore by then. It was okay for about 3 months. The last two months were horrible. At the beginning of October 2014, I quit and retired before I could be fired. It wasn't over things at the library as much as it was my boss and I clashing over personal time off. If you give your life over to God to be in complete control, you have to continue to do so and whatever happens I believe that is God directing my path.
I still continue to struggle with low self esteem and depression. Mostly over my relationship with my extended family. I am talking about my siblings and their children and grand-children. I have to move on and not let this kind of stuff keep me down. I have to realize and keep in mind, that the relationship I have with God is the most important one. The next one is my relationship with his dear son, Jesus Christ. That should be enough. But as a human you want to be loved and accepted by your family, church family and friends. I still struggle with the feeling of being left out. I pray God helps me over come these fears and I can be happy with the way my life is going.
I want to ask for everyone to pray for a cousin of mine. I don't know all the details and it truly isn't my business, but I know she is struggling with some personal issues. It is so sad she is having to go through them at this time. She loves the LORD and Jesus Christ and strives to stay faithful. She wants God to be in control of her life, but it seems the devil is attacking from all sides. I know how she feels because I have been through the same things in the past and some of the same things now. There was a couple of times for about 6 months, I felt go beatened. I just couldn't seem to shake the devil off and out of my life. One time was when I got to studying how the devil came to be and if he was the Arch Angel Lucifer who was cast out of heaven. I am still confused about that issue, but I do not seek to study it anymore. I believe Satan is real and he walks upon the earth seeking whom he may devour. I believe we can only see him in other people. Some do not believe he is on the earth and this world is his kingdom in the here and now. I believe he is in control of the earth and will be until Christ returns the second time.
This is all I have to say for now. Take care and God Bless.
*Starlight*
Now on to Wednesday. I have been getting better rest the last few nights and feeling better the next day. Using my CPAP machine most nights for my sleep apnea. Still having the problem with being on face book to much as usual. I have down time from my chores and jump on here and get distracted for way to long. I used to jump on right after I get up. If I do that, I usually don't get much done around the house. Retirement, if you can't keep yourself busy and like doing house work, dishes and laundry it is very easy to get distracted and not want to do anything that needs to be done. My husband has became upset at me a few times, for wasting my day away. A few weeks back I thought I might should go back to work. I am sorry to say that scares me having to go out and look for a job at age 65. I know many have had to and can only find menial jobs that are only 3 and four hours shifts two or three days a week. Because that doesn't bring in that much, they have to get a second and third job to pay the bills. I do believe God worked things out the way he did for me because my mom needed help and I was still working and couldn't spend that much time to help her. I had planned to retire at 62 draw my SSA and work part time. I was only working part time anymore by then. It was okay for about 3 months. The last two months were horrible. At the beginning of October 2014, I quit and retired before I could be fired. It wasn't over things at the library as much as it was my boss and I clashing over personal time off. If you give your life over to God to be in complete control, you have to continue to do so and whatever happens I believe that is God directing my path.
I still continue to struggle with low self esteem and depression. Mostly over my relationship with my extended family. I am talking about my siblings and their children and grand-children. I have to move on and not let this kind of stuff keep me down. I have to realize and keep in mind, that the relationship I have with God is the most important one. The next one is my relationship with his dear son, Jesus Christ. That should be enough. But as a human you want to be loved and accepted by your family, church family and friends. I still struggle with the feeling of being left out. I pray God helps me over come these fears and I can be happy with the way my life is going.
I want to ask for everyone to pray for a cousin of mine. I don't know all the details and it truly isn't my business, but I know she is struggling with some personal issues. It is so sad she is having to go through them at this time. She loves the LORD and Jesus Christ and strives to stay faithful. She wants God to be in control of her life, but it seems the devil is attacking from all sides. I know how she feels because I have been through the same things in the past and some of the same things now. There was a couple of times for about 6 months, I felt go beatened. I just couldn't seem to shake the devil off and out of my life. One time was when I got to studying how the devil came to be and if he was the Arch Angel Lucifer who was cast out of heaven. I am still confused about that issue, but I do not seek to study it anymore. I believe Satan is real and he walks upon the earth seeking whom he may devour. I believe we can only see him in other people. Some do not believe he is on the earth and this world is his kingdom in the here and now. I believe he is in control of the earth and will be until Christ returns the second time.
This is all I have to say for now. Take care and God Bless.
*Starlight*
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