Behind Once More
It has been a struggle to get used to posting in my journal daily. I think I have done it each day to find out at the end of the week, I missed the last three days. Ha Ha. Oh well no big deal. This is actually just for me. I feel the need to write about my feelings and many on face book considered my comments as not very polite to others. Funny thing is they post whatever they want about feelings and other people and think that is just fine. They just don't see it the same.
I have to say I did make some comments on Face book because I was hurt and felt unwanted. One party, not who I was pointing a finger at but of the same family, thought I was commenting about their family and I was using those comments to be hurtful to her family. Totally wrong interpretation. The party became very hurtful and mean to me, and I totally did not understand what was going on. This should all be in the past and that is where I need to leave it. I know, I know, I keep bring it up. Not because I can't get past it and move on. Well maybe a little, but just a reminder to myself why this time around I do not want to get to close. I think it is a lesson learned.
We had a wonderful Sabbath in Claremore yesterday. Nice crowd and a great sermon. Pastor Barry has been preaching on the Book of Daniel. Which as most of you know has a lot of prophecy in it about the end times. I miss all the sermons I grew up listening to about prophecy. So many churches steer clear of preaching on prophecy. I feel that we need it more now than in the past. There are a few pastor's that still preach on prophecy. I thank God for those few. I had talked to Pastor Barry about sermons on prophecy. I am so glad he has done studies on prophecy so he can bring it to his local congregation.
This Sabbath was the monthly second Sabbath lunch. It is always a blessing to eat together and fellowship. I know some churches have lunch every Sabbath because many of the congregations travel from a distance to attend services. It is a blessing to them also, I am sure. In the evening the Women's group had a White Elephant Sale to raise funds for their group to help in sponsoring Women's Bible Studies and other programs of the local congregation. The group although small, do a great job for the local church. They have decided this year to only have meetings about every three months. In those meetings they plan the next few months activities. It is hard with everyone's schedules to get to monthly meetings. They have started a new Bible Study, that I had planned to attend. Friday night was the first session, that I missed. I totally forgot about it.
I just have to say I have felt closer to God in the last few years than ever before. I was baptized at the age of 13. I do feel I knew what it meant and understood I was dying out to my sins and rising again a new creature in Christ Jesus. But to actually have a big change in my life, I do not feel happened. I was not afraid to die when I was diagnosed with breast cancer in February of this year. I prayed God would take alway the tumor and be just another polyp or cyst and not a tumor. He chose not to answer that prayer for me. I still wasn't discouraged. I knew he would see me through in his time and his way. It was a stage 1 tumor, very small and very curable. Praise God I am cancer free. I went back to see my doctors and have my first mammo on that side and it looks good. Praise God I am still cancer free as far as the techs and my surgeon can tell from the mammo. Now I haven't seen the diagnoses from the mammo by the radiologist. I am quite confident the finding will be cancer free. God has been good to be through this whole incident. I had no nausea or pain from the tumor. I didn't even realize it was there. I still have a little ache and pains from the surgery, but I am healing quite nicely.
My left shoulder continues to heal. The exercises the doctor gave me to do, keeps me from getting so stiff where I can't use that arm. My elbow is still quite painful at times, but I have been having problems with it since my roll over wreck a few years ago. I have a bulge in my muscle right above my elbow joint. I am sure there is arthritis there as well as in my shoulder. This coming Thursday is my monthly check up with Doctor Ogg the orthopedic doctor. I pray he finds me healing quite nicely. The steroid shot he gave me in the office helped that very night. Actually after leaving the office to head home. The shot itself was very painful. I am not sure I would like to get those for my arthritis on a regular basis. My mom got them every three months for her hip she needed surgery on. It gave her relieve from so much pain. She still had to take pain relievers to help her between shots.
Friday the 12th of October would have been Lawrence and Betty Sue Eddy's twelveth wedding anniversary. Or maybe it was today the 14th of October. I have already forgotten the exact date. She commented on face book about it and shared their wedding picture. I am praying for her for peace and comfort. We all, including Lawrence, thought he would beat the cancer. He fought a good fight for two years. His son Max passed away of brain cancer as most of you know, and his daughter Margaret over came ovarian cancer. But yesterday at church, Betty Sue asked prayer for Margaret for health issues. I pray the cancer isn't back.
Cousin Colby Hinds was at lunch yesterday. He has moved to Tahlequah, Oklahoma with his Taylor grandparents. His mom and dad and sisters moved to Marion, Oregon for Tim to be the associate and youth pastor of the church there. I really didn't think much about him not moving with them. He chose to stay in this area to be close to his daughter, Lauralie, who lives in Missouri with her mom. I don't blame him. There were months her mother wouldn't even let him see her. I pray God be in control of that situation.
Time for me to say goodbye for today. Have a wonderful evening and may God continue to bless you all.
*Starlight*
I have to say I did make some comments on Face book because I was hurt and felt unwanted. One party, not who I was pointing a finger at but of the same family, thought I was commenting about their family and I was using those comments to be hurtful to her family. Totally wrong interpretation. The party became very hurtful and mean to me, and I totally did not understand what was going on. This should all be in the past and that is where I need to leave it. I know, I know, I keep bring it up. Not because I can't get past it and move on. Well maybe a little, but just a reminder to myself why this time around I do not want to get to close. I think it is a lesson learned.
We had a wonderful Sabbath in Claremore yesterday. Nice crowd and a great sermon. Pastor Barry has been preaching on the Book of Daniel. Which as most of you know has a lot of prophecy in it about the end times. I miss all the sermons I grew up listening to about prophecy. So many churches steer clear of preaching on prophecy. I feel that we need it more now than in the past. There are a few pastor's that still preach on prophecy. I thank God for those few. I had talked to Pastor Barry about sermons on prophecy. I am so glad he has done studies on prophecy so he can bring it to his local congregation.
This Sabbath was the monthly second Sabbath lunch. It is always a blessing to eat together and fellowship. I know some churches have lunch every Sabbath because many of the congregations travel from a distance to attend services. It is a blessing to them also, I am sure. In the evening the Women's group had a White Elephant Sale to raise funds for their group to help in sponsoring Women's Bible Studies and other programs of the local congregation. The group although small, do a great job for the local church. They have decided this year to only have meetings about every three months. In those meetings they plan the next few months activities. It is hard with everyone's schedules to get to monthly meetings. They have started a new Bible Study, that I had planned to attend. Friday night was the first session, that I missed. I totally forgot about it.
I just have to say I have felt closer to God in the last few years than ever before. I was baptized at the age of 13. I do feel I knew what it meant and understood I was dying out to my sins and rising again a new creature in Christ Jesus. But to actually have a big change in my life, I do not feel happened. I was not afraid to die when I was diagnosed with breast cancer in February of this year. I prayed God would take alway the tumor and be just another polyp or cyst and not a tumor. He chose not to answer that prayer for me. I still wasn't discouraged. I knew he would see me through in his time and his way. It was a stage 1 tumor, very small and very curable. Praise God I am cancer free. I went back to see my doctors and have my first mammo on that side and it looks good. Praise God I am still cancer free as far as the techs and my surgeon can tell from the mammo. Now I haven't seen the diagnoses from the mammo by the radiologist. I am quite confident the finding will be cancer free. God has been good to be through this whole incident. I had no nausea or pain from the tumor. I didn't even realize it was there. I still have a little ache and pains from the surgery, but I am healing quite nicely.
My left shoulder continues to heal. The exercises the doctor gave me to do, keeps me from getting so stiff where I can't use that arm. My elbow is still quite painful at times, but I have been having problems with it since my roll over wreck a few years ago. I have a bulge in my muscle right above my elbow joint. I am sure there is arthritis there as well as in my shoulder. This coming Thursday is my monthly check up with Doctor Ogg the orthopedic doctor. I pray he finds me healing quite nicely. The steroid shot he gave me in the office helped that very night. Actually after leaving the office to head home. The shot itself was very painful. I am not sure I would like to get those for my arthritis on a regular basis. My mom got them every three months for her hip she needed surgery on. It gave her relieve from so much pain. She still had to take pain relievers to help her between shots.
Friday the 12th of October would have been Lawrence and Betty Sue Eddy's twelveth wedding anniversary. Or maybe it was today the 14th of October. I have already forgotten the exact date. She commented on face book about it and shared their wedding picture. I am praying for her for peace and comfort. We all, including Lawrence, thought he would beat the cancer. He fought a good fight for two years. His son Max passed away of brain cancer as most of you know, and his daughter Margaret over came ovarian cancer. But yesterday at church, Betty Sue asked prayer for Margaret for health issues. I pray the cancer isn't back.
Cousin Colby Hinds was at lunch yesterday. He has moved to Tahlequah, Oklahoma with his Taylor grandparents. His mom and dad and sisters moved to Marion, Oregon for Tim to be the associate and youth pastor of the church there. I really didn't think much about him not moving with them. He chose to stay in this area to be close to his daughter, Lauralie, who lives in Missouri with her mom. I don't blame him. There were months her mother wouldn't even let him see her. I pray God be in control of that situation.
Time for me to say goodbye for today. Have a wonderful evening and may God continue to bless you all.
*Starlight*
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